Back to the Beach

Well summers finally fading away and fall is almost upon us. That means its a perfect time to go to the beach in Okinawa since the weather is bearable and the water still warm from the summer. On Sunday, my coworker and friend Kiyo and I took Audrey and Emma to Hamahiga Beach. He took some really nice photos that I thought I should share...

I don't mean to rub it in (well, actually yes I do) but we are 20 minutes away from this very quaint and beautiful beach. The ocean is calm, clear and feels like luke warm bath water this time of year. Only thing is the sand is not so nice because of Okinawa's coral base so its quite course.

Of course Audrey and Emma enjoy the beach very much. Maybe next year its time to take them camping up north. I need to figure out how to balance my work life better. I'm not giving myself enough time on the weekends to enjoy my family. This is something my father was very good at. Balancing work life and personal leisure. Okay, I'm getting too philisophical, back to the photos.

Here's a video of Audrey swimming in the ocean.

Eisa Matsuri

Well these days the fact that Audrey is no longer a baby is really hitting me in the face. She's only in pre-school I know, but she's talking a whole lot (bilingual now) and she has also started the phase in her life where she must wake up early in the morning and go be a member of the outside world. Welcome to real life baby, already... Damn that sucks. Recently her pre-school has her participating in the timeless Japanese tradition of Undoukai (Sports Festival) and the Okinawan revered Eisa Matsuri (Eisa Festival). I haven't downloaded the Undoukai photos yet so I'll just share some photos from the Uruma City Eisa Festival and from Audrey's first ever Eisa Matsuri debut with her pre-school classmates.

Local Koja Matsuri (Ken the flag bearer with his two daughters Audrey and Emma)

Audrey climbing all over her Mom's beautiful red kimono

Audrey and her Kirin Gumi Classmates (Giraffe Class)

Akemi says that she's glad that as a Dad, I'm able to handle both the video camera (in my left hand) and the digital camera (in my right) all at the same time with Emma climbing on my back... She said she just wished that she had an extra camera to take a photo of me being a gung ho "Japanese Dad" as she called it at Audrey's pre-school events. She said that she didn't think that American men acted that way... Also I'm contemplating doing some English lessons to Japanese students on the side for a little "stash away" cash. Because my wife has me on a measley weekly allowance, I have about 10 dollars of "fun" money all to myself per week. Therefore at 15 dollars per hour with 3 to 4 students a class at two classes a week, I may even be able to spend 100 dollars without my wife even having to know (or give me the evil beady eye). Do I have time to do this, probably not. But same as Shishimai, I'm just going to do it and see what happens later. Somehow, it will work out I'm sure. Here's a shot of me with a class I taught for the Japan Air Self Defense Force in Onna Village, Okinawa. Some of them went to place high in the JASDF annual English speech contest.
On a side note, life is quite busy for me these days. Okinawa living has really settled in my soul recently. I think I've become very normalized to this place and feel like I've lived here forever. Although still a constant source of stress is my maladaptive Japanese which gets me by just fine (in a humbling and ever so frustrating manner). I find myself really tiring of speaking in Japanese recently... I blunder with simple sentences these days it seems. I'm sure I've just arrived a low point in my life force curve and its bound to go up sooner or later. But who cares now that I have Audrey as my personal translator. She makes life easier around Grandma's house, that's for sure. Anyways, I'm rambling and its time for bed. Until next time!

The Dance of the Shisa "Shishimai"

(Hey that's me!)

I have to admit, I've been feeling more and more guilty about not making entries into this blog as of late. It's the type of guilt one feels for eating that extra piece of cake or wasting an entire Sunday lazing around the house watching TV. It's a guilt that gets easier and easier to shrug off as the weeks go by. In fact, if it wasn't for my weird ability to get involved into things I have no business getting involved in, I might have thrown in the towel weeks ago.

Out of boredom, I ever so often go visit the local "izakaya" or Japanese pub just down the street from my house. I know Mama-san there who is a very kind and easy-to-smile Okinawan women who after losing her husband to cancer, has been trying to succeed in running her own business. I get to talking to her about my interests in things Okinawan, and she suggests to me that I talk to the Koja (the name of my neighborhood) Community Center leader. Next time he comes in, I'll give you a call she says. So I meet up with him in about a weeks time and I get to drinking with this guy and I end up meeting the whole Shishimai or "Dragon Dance" troop in one of their monthly "Nomikai's" (basically, its a drinking party). I get to drinking and have a great time and go home. The next week, I find my name on the local list of Dragon Dance team members as a "Sanshin" (Okinawan banjo-type instrument) player. Wow, my cell phone number and home address are posted on that list and everything! How did that get there, I think to myself (no recollection whatsoever of telling ANYONE I would join their troop). Then I think, crap I guess I better go through with it. And that's how it all started.

(The Koja Shishimai Troop, Okinawa City, Okinawa Japan)

Turns out, the shishimai troop is the first troop to come out of Okinawa City in 30 some odd years. We are practicing hard every week for an upcoming Prefecture wide competition in September. Nevermind about my PE exam or my more than full time work schedule, and not to mention my two kids at home. Okay, I have no time for this but I simply can't resist!

I actually don't know much about the Shishimai so I don't think I can do it justice but the basic premise is that its origins are from the Chinese "Dragon" dancing festival. You've all seen it, 10 chinese guys running down the street carrying a dragon costume along with various dancers and musicians. Looks interesting right? So the Okinawa's have something related but very different. First of all in Okinawa, its not a dragon. Its actually a "Shisa", which is kind of like a mystic creature (mix of a dog and dragon) which Okinawan's traditionally put in front of their houses to ward off bad spirits. You can see an example of contemporary and very cute shisa on the top of my blog page. These of course are cute little tourist trinkets and aren't the real thing. The shishimai troop is basically made up of 3 main groups, I think... You have the drummers or "taiko" group. You have 2 dragon dogs or "Shishi" which are each comprised of two men inside that shag carpet costume. Then you have the "sanshin" group with accompany the drums for a musical background to the performance. You also have misc people that blow seashell horns and bang on metal chimes. Apparently, the Okinawan Dance of the Dragon Dog is made to look very realistic, where the movements of the Shishi are imitated against the real movements of a canine or "dog" for the lay person. In contrary, the movements of the Chinese Dragon are more "unworldly" like a floating/flying mystical creature.

I actually don't really know very much, but I'll figure it out as I go along I guess. Meetings with the Shishimai group are always an intersting mixture of half-understandings and blurred messages due to my ever-so-maladaptive Japanese skills. Anyways, I'll post more later after we perform in this local festival "Manta Matsuri" on the 10th of August. Its our first performance as a troop and is a vital practice for the real deal in September. Until next time, peace out. Oh, check out the kick-butt taiko drumming group on the video link below. The first time I saw these kids go at it, my eyes actually started to tear up.

Biker Chicks

So the most recent thing Audrey has gotten into these days is riding her princess bicycle (which Larry bought for her last year) around our neighborhood. Well when we moved to Okinawa that bike took a real beating, suffering extensive damage to the pedal cranks, training wheels and tires during its 2 month trip over California highways to LA port, then across the Pacific Ocean to Kobe, Japan then again across the Japanese seas to Okinawa. Well we had to replace some damaged parts for it but since the bike was American we had a real hard time finding the parts it needed in Japan. Luckily a bike shop just down the street was able to find us used parts over the internet and fixed it right up for us. We really wanted Audrey to use THAT bike, since it was a gift from her Uncle (who she affectionately refers to as her "best friend"). That's on good days anyways, on other days she'll say to him "You're fat, you're fat. Or maybe even, you're not the boss, I'M THE BOSS! But that Uncle Larry-Niece relationship is quite special, so we put in the effort to "save" that bicycle and have it be the one she uses in early childhood. We all have had and remember that childhood bicycle of our respective pasts. I remember my first real bike was red with white handle bar grips and I used it for years to get around the neighborhood on various childhood adventures.

Well then I started taking Audrey out to ride everyday right after work since there is usually an hour or two worth of daylight left when I get home. Emma of course could not be fooled for more than two days in a row. She insisted to be let outside to see what daddy and Audrey were up to and BAM, we were caught in the act! Emma was so upset that she didn't get to have her own bicycle to ride. So Akemi called around and was able to get a hand-me-down tricycle from her sister. So now we go out there and ride together most days. Audrey talks about her bicycle, and she brags to her friends. She gets competitive with Emma eventhough Emma can't even pedal on her own yet. She does pretty good and here's a little video of a ride we had the other day.

The good thing is our neighborhood is located on a dead end street so we really don't have to worry about cars. There are about 10 houses in the area and there are kids ranging from 2 to 16. So I think this will be a really nice neighborhood for the girls for awhile. I'm still quite pleased with this house we got in Okinawa City. I feel like I can settle here. I just need to make sure I can continue to find and do work for somebody. But so far so good and I expect things will be okay. If not, I could go work as a civilian on one of the bases here. For now, its just fun watching my two girls grow up.

Tadaima

Here's a typical end of the work day, tired, worn down from dealing with the world all day, but excited to walk through the front door...

With all the kids being born in the Bull family these days (Big congradulations to Peter and Lara!! Good job and otsukare sama). Makes you realize what a treasure you really have in kids. Boy, they are frustrating - but make your short time in the world worthwhile. I say this now while my kids are still young and adore me. Just wait another 10 years when they refuse to sit at that same table as their Dad in a public place... Or does it come sooner than that?

Other good news, Akemi's sister is pregnant! So Akemi is REALLY FREAKIN EXCITED. I'm happy for them and for Audrey and Emma. They will soon have a new cousin, playmate, someone younger with less experience and know how. Finally Emma will have the upper hand on somebody... You go girl!

Tired tonight, planning to go to sleep in ten minutes but before I do, I wanted to share with you all my girl's new hair styles. Emma's is pretty damn cute I have to say. I didn't think they'd look good with short hair and I resisted this change. But Akemi was right in insisting. It is hot and humid here in Okinawa. It's not fair, I'm a man and don't know how it feels to have to live with long hair she says... So I diplomatically conceeded.

AUDREY FRONT AND SIDE SHOTS

EMMA FRONT AND SIDE SHOTS

Well, that's all I've got people. I need to quit working so hard, I'm too tired by the time I get home... Until next time.

Sisters

The kids are growing up man... Growing up fast. Little Emma can talk quite a bit now and Audrey, well, Audrey doesn't ever stop talking. Her Japanese is getting pretty damn good too. They fight all the freakin' time and I find myself losing my temper a lot. But I try to remind myself that thats what sisters are supposed to do right? Fight and cry and generally drive each other crazy. I sometimes view Audrey to be an evil tormentor who cleverly and hungrily finds poor little Emma's weak spots then exploits them to the full extent possible. There is no remorse, only the wicked satisfaction of retribution. The sweet revenge for all those time Emma took away the spot light, or got poor little Audrey in trouble for not sharing. But then from time to time I discover that Emma has been crying for no other reason than to bring big bad angry Dad's wrath down upon poor Audrey-chan. She uses me as a weapon to smite her bigger more powerful/smarter sister. I'm being cleverly manipulated by a two year old. They are both worthy advesaries of each other. Oh what a battle these two rage...

But its not all fighting and psychological warfare... There are really nice childhood experiences abound. I'd like to illustrate this for you. For instance sometimes we all enjoy a really good game of hide and seek. Please click on the next freakin adorable video link:

And here are the sisters dancing together to a "Wiggles" tune on the Disney Channel:

JUN-CHAN
















HIKARI-CHAN

Working WIth The Japanese

Working in a foreign country can be interesting. Here you can see a typical morning at the construction site. Every morning the Japanese perform ritualized stretches and exercises to the same tune (song) they have heard for their entire lives every morning since kindergarten. This morning exercise has been around for god knows how many years. I've never seen any alteration of any kind to the recorded tune or to the type of stretch or alteration of the sequence of events. If I was a smart man, I could ponder on some deeper cultural meaning. To me, I just think its funny to see all these grown man doing their morning stretches. This next video was taken from inside my car capturing the morning warm-up exercise.




I know that most of you really want to just see more pictures of the kids. That is exactly why I am attaching two very fascinating action shots of me testing concrete building piles. Hey but this really is my life now. I performed a number of jobs in my life... I've delivered pizzas, I've drummed hazardous waste, I've bagged grocies and picked up golf balls on a golf range. I guess testing piles is just another one of those weird side jobs you find yourself doing so you can feed your family. I ask myself all the time how in the world I got myself to where I am. I really should be in the US eating the Sizzler all-you-can-eat on Tuesday nights and working a normal job.

I know work is not incredibly fascinating. So I'll put in some shots of Audrey and Emma at the beach to help add some color.

Okinawan Shimi

This blog entry is about 3 weeks late... The month of April contains one of Okinawa's most sacred of observances. It is known by Okinawans as "Shimi" and it involves bringing family members together in front of the family tomb to have a meal together with the spirits of those family ancestors who have past away. In Okinawa, the tombs are like small stone houses. In the old days they used to hold the bones of those loved ones who had past away. They were also used extensively in WWII to provide shelter for Okinawans caught in the middle and trying to survive the "typhoon of steel", a combination of Japanese and US mortar shellings, bullets, grenades and shrapnel that killed so many in those days.

Today, the cremated remains of the entire family are stored together in the tomb. The tomb is generally inherited by the eldest boy of the family. The other siblings will either start their own tomb or be absorbed by their husbands family heritage. If we stay in Okinawa for the long term, I imagine I will invest in my own stone tomb and create the first Bull Family Tomb in Okinawa...

(Matsuda Family Tomb Engraved Head Stone)

In the second weekend of April, our family, the Matsuda's gathered near a small village in Northern Okinawa called Teima. This is the small village that my mother used to live in as a child. You should see this place. The ocean is just across the street from where the tomb sits. The ocean and its craggy coral shore is a beautiful sight to see. I love northern Okinawa as it is the one place left that the rapid urbanization of Okinawa has not swallowed whole. Its a very rural setting, the next size able city Nago being many many miles away. It is here that the Matsuda family was laid to rest many years ago. Nearby to the Matsuda tomb is a communal village tomb that those connected to the village collectively pray to before starting the annual feast to commemorate the dead. I believe that this tomb was created during WWII. A community tomb was made and used by the entire village to mourn their dead. The day of the Shimi, I met many people who are connected to Teima who have come to pray at this same tomb that me and my cousins pray too. In fact as I was walking, my Aunt Hiroko told me she just saw walking by an old and very dear friend to my mother. I probably should have talked to her. In any case I don't have much in depth knowledge of the customs of Shimi but I do know some main points.

(The 2008 Matsuda Family Gathering)

First, money is presented to the tomb and ceremonially burned as an offering to the deceased. Nowadays, real money is not used. They use special napkins that symbolize money. These napkins are burned as an offering to our ancestors. Then food and sake (usually the Okinawa spirit Awamori) is presented to the tomb and placed on an offering tray. Next to the food offering is a bowl of ash where incense is placed by each family member in attendance. One piece of incense is given to each family member, the incense is lit then placed in the bowl of ash. Prayers are then offered to the dead in which it is common to pray for protection from harm and a hope for future happiness for the family. The ancestors of the family are thought to be able to provide protection and guidance to the "living" family through supernatural means. In Okinawa, ancestors are worshipped in place of a God or Buddha. This form of ancestor worship probably has historic roots in China (I'm totally making an uneducated guess here) but is quite unique to Okinawa in terms of comparing it to the rest of Japan. The food is then distributed to the family in attendance who eat "together" with the ancestors. Many times, this same ritual is repeated in Okinawan households, especially during Shimi but also when relatives have come to visit who haven't been seen in quite sometime. For example, I remember them doing a ceremony for my mother and I when we visited Okinawa about 10 years ago. For them at the time, it was like reacquainting Yoshiko (my mother) to her deceased father, mother, and brother after all those years she had been away living in the US. (Eldest Living Son - Katsuya Matsuda leads the ceremony byburning the money offering)

Well that's my shimi lesson for the day. You should really come to Okinawa and experience it first hand. In the month of July and August another way the Okinawa's praise their ancestors is evident in the local festivals. It's called Eisa Matsuri, and you can view it on the video bar to the right of the screen. Well, until next time!

Audrey Goes to School!

(Audrey putting her shoes on and getting ready to leave for school!)

Well I promised some more photos of Audrey so here you go. She's starting to get used to going to school everyday. She typically hesitates leaving the house, then hesitates steeping onto school grounds but then once she's in, she goes crazy with excitement and forgets herself. Today its Saturday and so I got to be the one to walk her to school.

Today she seemed okay throughout the entire walk which is unusual for her. Usually she's worrying about which teacher is going to come greet her that morning or worrying about nap time. Apparently, she loves her main teacher and if she sees her first thing in the morning, everything usually goes pretty smoothly.

(Contemplating the tough road ahead...)

(Action shot - Audrey dashes to school)

(In front of school - the day prior)

(Emma truly enjoying herself alone at home in her favorite chair)

Here's a little video of today's walk to school -

Until next time!

You Load 16 tons and what do you get?

Another day older and deeper in debt right? Well, I've been doing my fair share of work these days. But the good thing is, I'm really learning a lot everyday. Unfortunately for me, I'm all on my own. No teammates, no mentors... It's funny what that does to your mind. Well anyways that situation may change in a few weeks. A co-worker of mine out of the Tokyo office may come down and assist me with some of this testing work in a few short weeks. That will be somewhat of a relief having someone else around. It's really quite interesting this project. I don't think I'm at liberty to say too much but I will say that its been a strange roller coaster ride. But this project just might pave the way for me into future endeavors here in Okinawa. It seems that at the end of this I should have a pretty unique skill-set for this island. I guess we'll just wait and see how things pan out.

Well Audrey started pre-school about two weeks ago. She seems to like it okay but absolutely hates nap time. Oh what child of mine could hate nap time? She sometimes cries for Mommy during that 90 minutes of hellish boredom. But otherwise, she is making friends and learning Japanese. I'll have to post a photo of the school here maybe tomorrow. It's kinda of a relaxed, kinda WWII era-esk type place where kids run around with dirty feet and runny noses. But the teachers seem friendly and Audrey is playing with all kinds of kids her age.

That and Emma is in absolute heaven when Audrey is not around. She really enjoys having the house (and ALL THOSE TOYS) to herself with no one to answer to. Actually I think Emma has finally found the happiness she has been seeking this whole time... I feel happy for the both of them. You know, I need to take more photos to illustrate these things. I will work on that.

As for now, I'm tired and ready for bed. Here I am turning in at 9 pm at night. Am I becoming an old fart already?

Busy, busy, busy

It's getting warm outside in Okinawa. You know what that means? It's time to go to the beach again!!!

It's been awhile since my last post and there is a perfectly good reason. I've been working too much and have had little time to myself. Good news is though, I've secured myself a relatively large scale 2-3 year project (I can say that with 99% certainty - not 100). Its big enough to cover my salary plus overhead and maybe even some profit on the side for the next few years. The main point is, the Okinawa office is making it and I feel secure. The Okinawa office is actually doing too well as I am working on 3 to 4 projects at one time. I currently have some people from Tokyo down here helping me out on my work load.
Enough about work though, right now life is too stressful and busy. But in just three weeks, I've managed to get used to my new environment and adapt to my new work requirements. Things should get easier from here (I'm hoping anyways). I told my boss that I can do this for awhile but I can't sacrifice my life over my job. Like I said, I think things will get more manageable once I finish a few little side projects that are taking up time that I don't have.

(Beautiful Little Hamahiga Beach - 20 minutes away by car)

The kids and Akemi are doing well. We received our household goods finally from our move from California. So Akemi has been reunited with her valuable books and sewing equipment, Audrey and Emma with their numerous toys and princess tent, and me with my reclining chair (a gift from my father). We did manage to get ripped off by our international mover. Actual costs were about twice what they quoted us. We had to take care of all costs for transport within Japan. They avoided making any reinbursements despite the fact that I paid for "door-to-door" transport. The money isn't a big deal, I'm just happy all our stuff arrived and in one piece. Especially those items that have sentimental value like my Dad's blue Miyata road bike and all those photo albums.

(Audrey, Emma, and new friend Ari at Manta Park)

Let's see what else. A lot has happened, too much to remember. All I know is I've been working like crazy and trying to get my company in a good place. So far, I think I'm suceeding. Audrey will be starting school in about two weeks. Her pre-school is a five minute walk from the house. She's very very excited. That and we recently met up with Aunt Hiroko and family. She was quite sick for a month or so but she feels better now. She invited us to come over and eat with the Matsuda Family. Audrey and Emma have a second cousin that's about Audrey's age named Kankichi. Here they are posing together. Kankichi and Audrey are exactly the same height. Every time we eat dinner at Hiroko's house, we mark their respective heights on the column you see behind them.

(Kankichi, Emma, Audrey)

Well, I'll keep trying to post on this thing regularly. And I'll try to work on involving myself in something in life other than work. Until next time, sayonara and otsukare sama desu!